Week 2 Tuesday Night: DIET AND EXERSIZE

238 pounds
Total Lost (as of last Saturday):34.3

My Wedding Day, 8/31/2013

Holy Back Fat Man!! 

1. PREPARE. most important!

• Buy the food I can eat. Plan my meals. 
• Trying to get a family to eat healthy is really difficult!! I will have to work on another blog for that. My kid will not eat Portabello Pizza, and actually took a bowl of nasty (but delicious) ramen noodles. This mushroom even looked amazing!!! I have two more in the fridge to make, so I'll try to get a pic of this thing. I put marinara sauce on the cap, then I brown to turkey sausages (I pre-cooked), I put 3 dabs of ricotta cheese and shred some fresh Parmesan cheese. Bake until the cheese is bubbly. YUM!!!  200ish calories 
• (I eat 1200 calories; six times a day 200ish calorie meals)

1. Eat the right things. (Even when I go out to eat) Substitute where possible.

• Protein. When out the flavors are so tempting. BE CAREFUL. KICK ASS! 
• Chicken, Fish, Red meat (within criteria), stay away from pork. 
• Lean meat, no sauces. SPICES ARE OK.. salt..well.. it's going to make you retain water, but the choice is yours. You aren't likely going to gain fat, but you will gain weight. UNDOOBIDIBLY!
• Fat. In moderation
• Nuts 
• Almonds have about 200 calories in 25. 
• a great snack, 12 almonds and a cheese stick, or some fruit.
• the fat in the almonds quiet your brain 
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• egg yolk, avocado..cheese. (Mmmmm...cheese and wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine [in moderation]) 
• Nutrients
• Think Fruits and VEGGIES!! Whatever kinds you can get into your body. I like zucchini strips grilled with spices. I use a lot of FENNEL, because it is a bit sweet, so it gives me a feeling of satisfaction.. I really should eat more raw. 
• Carbohydrates
• I haven't started eating them yet. Not until the 1200 calorie phase is through. I am prepared though. Long Grain Brown Rice. As I understand, when toxins are released into your system from the fat cells, LGBR will actually help carry the toxins out. I will be eating Ezekial bread (freezer section, cheap at Trader Joes), with butter on it. I will eat quinoa and oats. 
• Sugar. In moderation
• The flirt fro-yo the other night with my family was in moderation. I had a few m&m's, and I paid for it at the gym. I gained nothing the next day. 

1.WATER no less than 64oz, Drink LOTS of water!! I'm so bad at it, unless I'm running.

1.ALL things in moderation

• This includes sleep. 
• This includes exercise. 
• This includes exalting myself, even if it's on my own throne. I am not the King. God has brought me along this journey. He has kept me company, and encouraged me along. If anyone should be exalted, it is HE. 
• I say this because when I look in the mirror I am seeing a woman I've never seen. 
• I've never dressed this woman. 
• I have never touched this woman. No one has. 
• I am losing balance. God:Me:Others
• I will love God with my whole heart, my whole soul and my whole mind. 
• I will love others as myself.

I will finish out this week and next at 1200 calories per day. 

EXERCISE:

I run at night generally, after work. 

I use a Body Media to track my progress. Here's today's workout: 

You can see when I woke up, started work, break, lunch, break, off..hanging out. 

I ran for distance today. I did 1.5 miles. 

Current personal best...

Running sucks, but it really works well. And I feel great doing it.

Nay, I feel great knowing that I am able to do it!

The distance increase was my husbands idea.. I only did it, cuz he said I could.. it was 6 laps.. not horrible.

Week One Weigh In

If you read my blog last night you know that it was a rough week....

Here goes...

Before the shots I weighed 272.2, and I believe I was still headed upward. I was in the red zone.

OBESE is the word I use at work..

I want to see who is under this chub. I am finding my confidence each day in running, and in rest. My current days off are those with my husband, but I find that I can burn MASS calories on the weekend because I am moving around so much. Today I rebuilt the front porch, it had rotted out. My husband was sleeping, bless his heart. We are having the house painted starting Monday. I love being thinner, and fit enough to be slinging lumber, and cutting it up in the Home Depot parking lot.

This is 0 days-0 lost: First day off the HCG shot. (Last Saturday)

TODAY:

8* DAYS 5.3 pounds LOST

It's really 7 days;because it's after midnight it added the 8th day. I have not weighed myself for Sunday.

It was not until the 6th day that I finally lost a pound. 

Yesterday morning I stood in front of the scale, and I begged it for a 2. 

I was 243.4[ish]for a solid week. I gained half a pound, but then it went away...

Back to 243.4

I worked out so hard all week. I have been so good on my diet. 

Yesterday, on the sixth day, I finally lost weight. I weighed 241.9.I would have been ecstatic to see 242, but Thank you GOD for that extra bonus point 1!

I was on the 1!! 

Out of the Two Hundred Forties. 

I don't think I've been less than 245 since I had my daughter. 

Today I was very pleased to see that not only was I OUT of the 40's, but I snatched the 30's. 

238.1

Boom. THAT is Beast Mode. 

How I did it:(more details, including pics, in the rest of my blog story) 

1200 calorie diet 

Exercise 3-5 times a week

LOTS of water 

REST

LOVE and SUPPORT

GOD

Gonna see where this takes me... should be interesting..

Week One :Emo/Phys/Spir Update

Tomorrow is upon me!! Week one off the HCG.

Let me just say it has been a very tough week. Until this morning I hadn't lost anything.

Emotional Stability: I am trying to balance my value. I am not a number on the scale. I was mean to my body for its entire life, and now I see the consequences. I am excited about losing the weight and learning to live as this new person. My husband tells me that I am beautiful, but I have put into my mind that until I look a certain way, there is no way I could be beautiful in his eyes. I need counseling, the image of myself has been skewed. I will never look like the women my husband looks at. I become proud of my hard work, then see how far I have to go.  I compare myself to everyone now. I am working inwardly on replacing negative thoughts I say with positive ones. It's not easy. I'm trying to hear my husbands compliments, and believe them, that he honestly feels that way about me.

That's what is going on in my head...
Here's what's going on with my body.....




1 calorie is the energy it takes for water to rise by a single degree Celsius.

3500 of them, clumped together as a solid, equals 1 pound.

If I store 3500 calories I will weigh 1 pound more than before. If I burn 3500 calories, I will weigh 1 pound less.



My body needs a specific number of calories in order to survive. If I sit completely still, and simply breathe naturally, my body will burn a specific number of calories. This is called a BMR, or basal metabolic rate. Here's a tool I use.. http://www.bmi-calculator.net/bmr-calculator/ 

I have a BMR of 1856.36. 

But I'm not completely still; I lift my arms, and engage my muscles; that requires additional energy. 

I need roughly 2550-2900 (1.375 & 1.55) calories per day to maintain my weight. It takes 3500 calories to equal a pound. I need to lose another 40-50 pounds, that is 140-175,000 calories I have stored on this body. 

I'm not a number, but I know how the numbers work. 

SO WHY DIDN'T I LOSE?? 

Tonight I ran a half mile at 6.0, then ran 5.0-5.5, with bursts along the way (mountain range below). I have a new personal best..10:29 mile. I believe they call those small victories. I'll take it. 

My Body Media Workout from today. It reads your level of exertion.

I was > 95% true to my diet.. My body is starting to tell me when it's time to eat.. it didn't used to, because it didn't have to. Now it's trying to talk to me, and I'm learning to listen to it!! If you'd like to know a typical day, ask. 

As I understand muscle weighs more than fat.

So I am assuming that I gained muscle (tons of squats) and held water. My muscles were swollen, from the micro tears..no doubt that I burned stored fat for energy, only eating about 1200 calories, and burning all the additional from activity. 

Today:

1856 needed for living and an additional 1000 for activity. 

Eat 1200 calories. 

2856-1200=1656+calories removed from my body. Just over 1/2 a pound. It's a lot of work, but it works. Every time. 

Muscle burns more calories... my cardio burns a lot.. but I need to burn more with weights... I think I need a personal trainer.. so I can learn how to work my body...

Crib notes, Day 6 4.25.2014

Recap: Took Hcg for 6 weeks, lost almost 30 pounds. Now I'm off of it, the real work begins. Keeping it off, and digging under the rest of this chubb. Getting ready to start week 2.


Two days to weigh in. This morning I recorded no change from last week.

How frustrating!! 

No change is WAY better than having a gain, which I experienced initially... it was just a small gain, but a gain none the less.

As I understood, I should have expected to gain up to about 6 pounds or so right after I got off the shot. It didn't happen, so I'll take my small victory!

I'm actually on level 284, just re-installed...

I worked out Saturday at the gym with my sister, we did 4 reps of 1/4 mile at rapid pace (5-5.5mph), then we did HIIT sets of squats, lunges and misc exercises. We chose three exercises, then we ran again.. It was a hard workout, and my body has felt it all week. 





Sunday was Easter; after church my husband went to sleep, he's a new Sheriff's Deputy and works graves. I headed north about an hour to get my daughter. She stayed the night with her cousins.


Delicia, my sister, was thinking I was going to be coming by much later, so to keep me around she invited me over to her friends Easter celebration. I did very well, no sweets, I had some white turkey, a fruit mix-up and salad. I mingled with old people, and watched as they ate peanut m&m's. It wasn't easy.

When we got back to her house I tried talking her out of the planned workout; she wasn't havin' it.

EXAMPLE OF HIIT 

So we did another HIIT wod, 11 intervals, 30 seconds each, 10 second rest between intervals, and 1 minute between sets. I was so exhausted afterward, but still had enough energy to play a hardcore game of tether-ball with my brother. 

Monday I managed to go on a walk with my husband, just around the block with the dog. That was all I had in me.

Tuesday I was in the gym, I ran......

Rabbit Trail.....
Speaking of Running...

April 12th:

I ran at 4.5 the entire time, 13:17

April 13th:

14:03! I finished an ENTIRE MILE in 14:03!! I used to wog, and it would take about 15-20 minutes to complete a mile. I was so proud.

and then I got better.. when I tried harder.. April 14th:

A little faster..more importantly though, I did it again!!

April 16th:

Now we're talkin' I took almost an entire 2 minutes off of my "best" time!!

 April 17th:

5.0 for a mile. This is so mental. The mental is WAY more difficult than the pain in my legs.

 April 22nd:

I ran at 5.5 for most of this.. it averages out..

Interesting thing about my time.. my daughter has to run at school for a grade; the time I got would be a D!! I was running like I stole something!!
******End of the Rabbit Trail


Wednesday my husband and I went on a date, we drove about an hour south, to try a new restaurant, with food he'd enjoyed in Japan when he lived there. The ramen was SO good, fresh noodles. I had only one bite of the noodles, but I drank ALL of the broth, and ate the veggies. I can't imagine the salt was good for me, but it was very good.




Thursday I hit the gym. I did a treadmill wod, like the one I did with my sister on Saturday.

Here I am.. hoping for a loss... so thankful it's Friday.

Post HCG Week One Day One

Current weight 243.3 (First day off hcg) Goal:185 by Nov 11, 2014. Day 1. Today I rested. I worked out 6 days last week. Tomorrow I go again. I have 206 days to lose 58.4 pounds. I was 249.2 last June. About the same weight I am now. I cannot wait until I get into the 230's!! So every Friday I'll post an update. Keep me accountable.

This past week I decided to try running the mile. I discovered that I could do it!! I did a 13:29, 13:17, 13:04 and yesterday (Thursday) I did 11:30!!! ONE ENTIRE MILE!!!! Granted, that's only a 5.0, and really...it's not that fast (my daughter would get a D in her gym class!!), but damn it.. I felt like I was running away from a cheetah!!! Slowly but surely. I am going to continue... I WILL see the woman under this chub. 

Before: April 8, 2014 (10 days ago..close enough)

HCG Day 1

Didn't cheat on my diet.

Ok that's a lie.

This morning I made homemade cinnamon rolls for my husband, daughter and her friend. I made homemade cream cheese frosting too. As I was cleaning up the empty dish I scraped some of the cheese/sugar mixture onto the end of my finger and put it into my mouth. It was tasty. I turned the warm water on quick.

Other than that I have not cheated one time since I started this diet last Saturday.

I have lost 12.3 pounds as of this morning.

I have found that one of the most important parts of this diet is preparation. When it is time to eat, I'd better have something ready. I have a backup plan (Ultralean meal replacement) for the time that I am not prepared. I just made a big batch of Turkey Chili.. should last 3 days. I need to make something else, so that I don't get bored. I add a tablespoon of plain nonfat greek yogurt to add some twang.

Drinking lots of water, including green tea.

So my diet started 8 days ago. I weighed 272.2. Today I weigh 259.9. 

About Me

My name is Donna, of course that's not my real name . I am 36 years old, I live in Washington state with my husband, my daughter, my Boxer and the cat.

My family is new. My daughter is 13. I have been divorced from her father for more than four years now. I married my best friend in August of last year. He never had kids. He is retired from the military, Navy, after serving our country 20 years. I started dating him after he came back from his last deployment. I loved him from our first date. I loved him while we were friends, and I love him even more, now that we are married. He is an only child. My daughter is an only child. She swears she will never marry an only child, because she doesn't want her child growing up without Aunts and Uncles and cousins.

I am middle child. I have an older brother who lives in Oregon, where we grew up, and I have a younger who is serving in Georgia right now; he is in the Army. We grew up in the country.

My dad was in a motorcycle accident when I was 9, and he damaged his brain. He is paralyzed on the left side, which means he scrambled the right. He used to have better short term memory, at least 10 minutes.. he's at about 5 now. He remembers bits and pieces about my childhood. When I call him I never call him dad, because I don't sound right to him. I wait for him to ask me, and I say it's Donna. He says, that's what I thought. I was the twinkle in my daddy's eye. 

Alcohol took him away.

My mom raised three children on her own. I have never seen her hug another man. I have never seen her kiss another man. She honored her promise to her husband. I hope that when my dad passes that God would bless her with a man that will treat her like the amazing woman she is.

I don't have a relationship with my older brother, another story. 

My younger and I speak when he is drinking. When he isn't drinking he doesn't call, because he is spending time with his family. He is a good man. He inherited my father's taste for beer. He and my older both did. I can't stand the stuff. If I drink I drink hard a, and I get into my happy place, and I stop drinking when I get there. I like to be in control of what I am doing. I once thought that I was going to become an alcoholic, so I stopped drinking for a while. It was becoming a habit. I'd come home from work and have a drink. It helped.

My problem is like many others; food. I can't stop, I have no will power to avoid eating the things that got me into this state of being. I know why I allowed myself to hide behind the food. Now I am trying to shred off the damage I did. I would ultimately like to lose 100 pounds. But for right now I am focused on the amount

This blog is going to record my emotional rollercoaster. My husband went to the Police Academy this week, he'll be gone for a month. He is going to try to come home on the weekends (it's only about an hour and a half away), but that may be hard. I am try to lose 30-40 pounds by the time he graduates. April 11th I believe. I started this diet on the 8th. Today is the 16th.